The past few days - maybe weeks - have been kinda bad for me - not too sure why, but I have been feeling the urge to cry alot, and I don't get it.
I am hoping that it is just a release of stress, I am usually more in control of my emotions and very few people have seen me cry.
I have had a very deep feeling of loneliness that I am not sure how to deal with. I know I have to be this way until I get back on my feet, but it still would be nice to have a friend spend some time and talk to me a bit.
I know that I am kinda far away and that gas is expensive and that people have lives, but I would just like to know that someone cares enough to make room in their lives for me - I don't expect much, I would just like to know that their is someone out their - besides my mom - who is being very good to me by the way - that wants to spend some time with me.
I love my mom and she is being very patient and good to me, its just not the same as having a girl-friend to talk to, or a guy come take me outta here for a couple of hours or a sister who wants to make sure I am ok.
I am just feeling very alone right now and even the people who tell me they love me or say they will help me are too busy to actually spend any time with me. I feel like an after-thought.
