I am just not sure

Ok so the past few days have just been a waste - and that sucks cause I don't really have time to waste right now. My body has made it very difficult for me to get anything done. I am not sure if it a depression setting in or if I am really sick, so I don't know what to do about it right now except try to power through it and hope that it is not a physical illness. Depression is worse I know but at least if I know, I know that I can (hopefully) power through it with some serious positive thoughts and a long look ahead - where it has bound to be better.

I know that I haven't written in a while and I am hoping that it helps to get some stuff off my chest - I could always use some advice or input - and I give good advice too- even though my life is a mess.

I have posted my resume all over the place hoping that someone will check it out and know someone who  needs help or something. so...

http://www.resumebucket.com/deb328

If anyone wants to forward it to any one please feel free - I am getting pretty desperate at this point,  my mental health as well as my financial health are in serious danger at this point.

I am ok for now but am not sure how much longer I can sustain this level of tension. 
I try each day to thank God for what I have and not complain about what I don't - this has helped me put somethings into perspective. I just have to trust that there is a purpose and a plan and that all this is a test of my fortitude.

My Day

ok so I am pretty miserable today - I am not sure why really.
I have had some pain this week that kinda put my behind my schedule to get some stuff done and the resolution put my financially behind and it is not over yet - but this is just one more hurdle for me to get over on my road to where I am going - not sure where that is but the place I am in sucks so I need to move on and get over this and get on with my life - I just wish that I knew how to do that - it just seems like every time I have a plan and am confident that it will work out something stupid happens and I fall farther behind then I was before the plan.

I need to make a new plan and implement it before I get to discouraged to get anything done. I will just have to improvise for a while and pray that I am doing the right things.